The Best Way I Can (Poetry)

I want you to know
in case there’s a doubt
I’m keeping inside
what hurts to let out
I damp the fire down

I struggle each day
and some days are worse
on pain’s bitter ride
I pray then I curse
feel scared and alone

I try so so hard
to nail on a face
some neutral disguise
in suffering’s place
and stifle each groan

But often I’m caught
with no armour on
despair has a grip
so sudden and strong
my limbs turn to stone

I want to feel sure
you know that I am
battling demons
the best way I can
my war isn’t done